Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Joyrides in an Audi A3.

Something about the way an Audi purrs on LSD* at 4am. Especially when Foster The People's record "Torches" is on max volume. It's like a break from reality. It's just like Heaven.

*LSD = Lake Shore Drive

Pleasant Dreams.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Life without TV.

I feel like I'm back in the old days when TV's weren't invented yet. Those people used to just listen to music and that was entertainment!!!

Ahh yes, here's my jam.

Percy Sledge Pandora radio. This is heavenly.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Oh God, I know this feeling.

Taffy-Molasses Heart.

Fuck.

Why do I do this to myself?

He doesn't want me. He's made it oh so clear. So why has he been on my mind for the last week straight? Why can't I stop myself? Why does it have to be him? Why can't it be a guy that I've never met and will never get to meet?

Feels awesome and painful at the same time.

Who's afraid of the big bad Wolf?

Ahhwoooooo!

Me.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Howl at the moon!

If I were still friends with a certain Wolf, I would want to text him: "I'm howling at the moon tonight. AahhWooo!"

God, he's still all I can think about. And every single Smashing Pumpkins song reminds me of his stupid little smirk when he's playing guitar.

Fuck him. He lost his chance.

I got too close to the Wolf and I got bitten.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Operation Sunshine.

June 2012.

This is real.

Mom would be so proud!!!

PS: In four months, I get to hang out with my idol on my turf. It's all happening now.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Heart song.

"These Arms of Mine" by Otis Redding.

I wanna send him this song, because it says everything I'm thinking.

#kindergartencrush

Boredom.

I'm so bored, I'm bored of boredom. What a vicious cycle.

Options to kill boredom:
1. Eat something.
2. Read "Blue Like Jazz" while listening to the Otis Redding Pandora station.
3. Clean my bathroom, although I'm not pissed off enough to clean.
4. Listen to the Damien Rice Pandora station and cry, because everyone needs a random good cry.
5. Watch 'Almost Famous' or 'Pirate Radio' and wish I was living the music I listen to, like I used to.
6. Google dry-styles for work tomorrow while listening to Otis Redding.
7. Meditate and do breathing exercises to center and zen myself.
8. Take an extra long shower and give myself a facial/pedicure.
9. Make a 2012 Bucket List.
10. Think about that certain someone that makes me smile at the moment.

These are all very great ideas. See what the mind can come up with when pressed?

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

The Goddess and the Grocer.

Tonight he delivered my food again. Two songs played during our encounter at my doorstep.

1. "I've Been Loving You Too Long (To Stop Now)" by Otis Redding
2. "When A Man Loves A Woman" by Michael Bolton.

Everyone knows how I feel about Otis. He's my soother of the soul. He sings the blues and turmoil away for me. It was magic.

He kissed my head and hugged me. The hug was captivating as per usual, but the kiss was unexpected and electric. And to top it all off, Otis was our soundtrack.

#kingergartencrush

Monday, January 2, 2012

The Secret.

If you dream it, you achieve it.

Ask.
Visualize.
Believe.
Receive.

When I was little I would play doctor. With a last name like mine, why wouldn't I want to wear a white lab coat for 80 hours a week? Was just thinking about that.