Hello all.
I thought I should update you all on how my adjustment is going.
First off, the only real problem is that I can't eat solid food until after 2pm. Otherwise I have a protein shake for breakfast and lunch. Don't get me wrong, its not like I throw up, it's simply that I just get way too much heart burn after I eat before 2 pm.
I don't feel like I'm loosing weight, even though I work out every other day. Granted I'm not going to a gym, but I'm doing Fitness On Demand. It's free through my cable service provider, and they have 10 minute Cardio blasts for each area: abs, arms, legs, and butt. Which is equivalent to 40 minute work outs every other day. But still, I feel like I'm not loosing much weight. Sad. Maybe I will go on a scrictly liquid diet, just to kick start the weight loss.
Third, or whatever the hell number I am on now, I really need to learn when to stop eating. I've trained my brain to feel full when my plate is empty. And I know for certain that I'm not eating the 1/2 cup of food per meal. I'm eating more. Yuck, I feel like such a failure when I eat. It's the sad truth. Don't worry, I'm not going to get all ana on ya'll, but it's just what's inside my head. I'm not feeling pressure to be thinner, I simply feel disgusting at this weight. My goal is to loose 120 pounds. I've already lost 20, so 100 to go. I know I can do better, but we'll see how things go.
I really just need some motivation right now. Any tips?
Anyway, I am watching Braveheart and Pearl Harbor at the same time. I have to have love for Braveheart. Yes, the dudes in that movie are ugly as hell, but the accents make me melt. Seriously, I would move to Scotland for 6 months to a year just to gain the accent. How cute would I sound? HAHAHA. I would love my accent, instead of regular old and boring wisconsin accent. LAMEEEEE. Pearl Harbor is cute, because of the outfits. I loved the 20's and 40's. The fashion was killer.
Alright, I'll get back to the movies. Possibly work out for a second time today...I am having a fat and ugly day. Stupid girl emotions. Anyway love you all.
Sincerely,
Me.
PS: Go see "He's Just Not That Into You".....ultimate chick flick of the year. It's adorable, plus it has some great actors in it: Justin Long, Drew Barrymore, Ginnifer Goodwin, and Ben Affleck...who was by far very cool in this movie. After the whole JLo thing, he fell apart and his street cred went down the toilet. HAHAH
Peace, Love and Scotland.
